Well, I've pretty much known for awhile I'm terrible blogger. Though to be fair I haven't really had much to post and have had some things going on. Life. Oi.
I haven't really been able to focus too much on my beliefs and sorting thoughts out. I bought a couple of books but have yet to get through them. I haven't even bothered much with tarot, though I should probably give myself a reading here soon.
It honestly feels like if it's not one thing, it's another. Every time things start looking up, something else happens. I'm really struggling to stay positive. I've always been rather good at staying hopeful for the future, but lately it's taking too much energy. My anxiety seems to be worse, I'm having more 'down' days where I'd rather just stay in bed. The s/o is having back problems, believed to be a bulging disc. He had one a few years ago. It doesn't seem to be doing better, and I think he goes in tomorrow for an x-ray and hopefully that gets figured out. I hate seeing him in pain. I realize this is an extremely negative post. But I needed an outlet as I'm trying to avoid falling apart as things are starting to weigh down on me. I shall do a second, bit more postive post to try and make up for it. ^^ I'll just keep looking for that small beacon of light to give renforce my hope for the future while I continue to live my life best I can.
